Homebody

I had someone call me this word, homebody, the other day, and I took it kind of offensively at first. Since I have been out of High School I have been attending the University of Utah and trying to figure and piece together my life. In that amount of time more has happened then I could ever imagine. But the other day when someone called me a homebody, I really stepped back and thought about things.

At first I thought that is so rude, being a homebody is not a good thing. I am not outgoing. I don't live on my own. I basically don't do anything with my life and I suck. I was so upset. But then I stepped back and looked at it in a different perspective. I have been so blessed, with the most beautiful life. I have been given a life and family and friends that I love so much I don't have a desire to leave the home. Now, whoa. Hold your horses. I am not saying that I am going to live at home forever, cause I am not. But at this critical time in my life where I am working and going to school and trying to do all these things to benefit my future life and family. I will live at home. and I am fine with it. People judge me for it. I know they do. From comments people make to people telling me how I need to live my life. It is frustrating. But that is life, and that is people, so we have to deal with it. I have always been very open to hearing peoples different opinions or suggestions on different things, because that is nice stuff. If telling someone something that they can benefit from, I am all for it. However, it's when they keep telling you the same thing over and over is when things get a little old. And what do we do in these certain circumstances? Well for me, I feel sorry for myself. Am I not living my life right? Do I really need to move away from everyone and everything I love for me to grow up? If that is the case, you better put me in a bubble and ship me off.

So what does it all come down too? For me, I have to think of it as, this is my life. I am living it to the best of my abilities. There are certain things I could do differently sure, but for now, I am doing the best I can. Sometimes, that is all we can do. It is hard growing up, no matter what stage of it you are in, but you can do it! There are so many difficult things that we have to go through. It sucks. But if we didn't go through the hardships we wouldn't grow, we wouldn't learn and we wouldn't be who we are meant to be. And to think that we never have to go through anything alone. The Savior is always right on our side. We can turn to him for anything. We may be alone physically, but never spiritually. The Lord is always there to reassure us, to help us make decisions, to direct us on the right path. We are merely tools in his hands. As long as we rely on The Savior and the Gospel, we can make it through anything. Because, "Light always overcomes darkness" and because of all of that, I think I can be a homebody for awhile longer.

xoxo, Nessa