That Girl

I will always be that girl who the boys ask for advice.
I will always be that girl who will do anything she can to make someone happy.
I will always be that girl who has more than one best friend.
I will always be that girl who loves apple more than anything else.
I will always be that girl who would rather live in the country rather than city.
I will always be that girl who complains about school but loves every moment of it.
I will always be that girl who would rather be riding her horse.
I will always be that girl that wears a different pair of shoes everyday.
I will always be that girl that doesn't bring something up, no matter how much it bothers her.
I will always be that girl that would rather be walked all over than hurt someone else.
I will always be that girl that loves at the wrong time.
I will always be that girl that wont eat white lettuce.
I will always be that girl that hates math.
I will always be that girl that tries her hardest in everything she does.
I am that girl.                                                              

I will never be that girl that all the boys love.
I will never be that girl that has over 1000 followers on Instagram.
I will never be that girl who has the perfect body.
I will never be that girl who has the perfect skin.
I will never be that girl who has the most thick luscious beautiful hair.
I will never be that girl who has the most charming of personalities.
I will never be that girl that everyone loves.
I will never be that girl with the most perfect testimony.
I will never be that girl that has amazing talents that people love.
I will never be that girl who gets perfect test scores every time.
I will never be that girl who gets all the boys numbers.
I will never be that girl who has the perfect singing voice.
I will never be that girl who has the most glorious life.
But that's ok. I am that girl.

I am that girl who will strive to be the best she can .
I am that girl who will work hard in everything she does and tries.
I am that girl who will love the boy that will love her back.
I am that girl who wants to have a temple marriage.
I am that girl that will one day be a mommy.
I am that girl who will one day graduate with a degree.
I am that girl that will save lives in the future.
I am that girl who will always put Heavenly Father first.
I am that girl that will one day be all that I am meant to be.
I am that girl who will embrace everything life puts in front of her.

I am that girl.

I think that it is important for everyone to love themselves. It is hard at times, because we all like to pick out our flaws.  I am guilty of this for sure. I always want my hair to be thicker or my skin to be clearer. Or I don't understand why all the boys love her, when I am just as good. Well ya know what? It doesn't matter. No one cares, no one cares but you. Yes people care about you. But they love you for who you are and they'll love you no matter what. The people who really matter the most will always be there. Boys will be boys. But one day a boy will come and make you happier than anyone ever has. But before you go loving this boy, you gotta love yourself! Love every single cell in your body. Because you were built in the image of Christ, and in his eyes, you are perfect. Thanks so much for reading! I hope everyone is having an awesome Thursday!! The weekend is almost here! :)
                                                                    <3// Nessa

It Clicked!!

So lately, I've been in a slump. Another one. I have been in a lot of slumps lately. And I dunno why. Like why am I not getting my missionary letters, why am I not doing good on my physiology quiz's, why do I feel like I have no time for anything! All I wanna do is cuddle up and watch the Great Gatsby! But then today BOOM! It clicked!

So as most of you know, I have a lot, like a ton of friends who are serving LDS missions all throughout the world. Some people I am really close with are gone. I cant hear from them when I really need to hear from them, and I have really been struggling with that. I have been waiting for a letter or email now for 4  weeks and I just don't understand what is happening. And then why am I studying my brains out but I still always only get 2 out of 4 on my quiz! And like why is everyone getting married or engaged or all the sudden getting boyfriends and then there's me..who hasn't been on a date since July! Like ok. And I finally got to the point where I was like Heavenly Father! What are we doing here! Like I go to institute, the temple, pay tithing, pray & pray & pray, go to church, read scriptures and where's my blessings?! Nothing is working out and I am just ready to throw in the towel! So that was all pretty dramatic I know. But then today when I went to institute everything just kinda made sense. OPPOSITION! Heavenly Father has given us one of the most wonderful gifts, agency, we can choose and make decisions in everything we do. From the biggest things, to the smallest of things. He lets us choose. So when we make all these choices, we have consequences. Good ones and bad, depending on the choice we make. So then I was like, ok well, I am making pretty good choices in my life.. so what now. My teacher then proceeds to say that everytime we make a good decision, Satan is doing everything in his power to make it so we will stop making good decisions! So all the bad stuff or hard struggles we face everyday and lately for me, more frequently that not. Well, if we stay true and strong to what we know is right, Satan is gonna go away. And something bigger and BETTER is on the way. Heavenly Fathers promised blessing will be coming, eventually, even though it feels like it will never end its gonna end and all those good blessings are gonna come!! :) So if you didnt take anything outta that mess I just wrote just take this, DONT GIVE UP! Just keep "pluggin" along through the hard times cause there are good times ahead :) Thanks so much for reading! :) 
                                                                     <3//  Nessa

I dont know about you...but I'm feeling 22!!

Happy 2 months to 2 of the best missionaries I know!!! Two months down and only 22 to go!! And I don't know about you but I am feeling these next 22 months are just going to be awesome!! Yes, they will be trying and difficult, but, they will be awesome. Only 22 months until I get to see their cute little faces again in real life! Only 22 months till we no longer will only have to communicate via letter and email! Only 22 more months until I can hug them and feel short again! Ok, I am kinda excited. But it is a big deal!! These boys have 22 more months to change peoples lives. 22 more months to give people this beautiful gift. No, these next 22 months won't fly by, but that is ok. Because we have already made it through 2 months!! It feels like these last 2 months have already flown by somedays...other days it feels like they have been gone for 20 years. But every letter and email I read from these boys tells me otherwise. They improve each day, they work hard each day, and they gain something great from everyday they serve. 2 years seems like a long time. But in reality it will be here before we know it, and we will be waiting at the airport with signs in no time!! So all you Moms, Dads, Sisters, Brothers, Cousins, Friends, Girlfriends, whoever is reading this that has missionaries in the field, hang in there cause I don't know about you, but I am feeling 22!! :)

Yes I totally stole this pic from Prest's blog but hey its a good cause.

 

 

Oh and of course, you have to listen to this song cause it inspired the post!!

Hope everyone has a happy Tuesday!! :) Thanks for reading!

<3// Nessa

One Day.

Lately things have been difficult. Like every little thing I do I have had to either try to cram it in, or do it unexpectedly. I am starting to have exams come up, and my classes seem to be getting busier and harder every day. I can tell now that this semester isn't going to be as easy as I hoped for. But then again college is never easy. And then again, nothing in life is ever easy. I have had some really hard days lately, and I know there is more on the way. I know my missing for my missionaries is just going to get worse. I know that me not wanting to send anymore of my friends out is going to get real, and I know things are going to get harder. Like all I can keep thinking is every person I talk to everyday, will be gone in the next 6 months. I know that waiting for the letters in the mail is going to be harder now than ever, because I wont get them every week because you're not in the MTC. And the emails are going to become less frequent and shorter because your internet is bad. Like can I really do this?

Yes.

 

I have made it through hard days before, I can make it through some more. One day I will get an A on that test. One day I will get that letter I have been waiting 4 weeks for in the mail. One day I will understand all my Chemistry homework and get in on time. One day that person will realize they do still need me in their life. One day all of you will all be home and I will be able to embrace your presence fully again. One day I will get the email that I so desperately need. One day I will be the one holding the hand of the most handsome man and be walking out the temple doors. One day I will be the mom that holds that beautiful newborn in her arms. One day I will be the girl who finishes a marathon. One day I will be able to travel the world. One day I will be the Doctor that I want to be. 

 

It may take time. Whether it be 2 years on a mish or 2 hours studying. Everything in life will take time. But all these things will happen one day. Today is not that day. But every day that passes is a day closer to all those things that one day, I will be able to achieve. If I can make it through this day. I can make it through tomorrow and eventually it will be the weekend and then hey guess what! That whole month will have flown by. No I am not wishing my life away. I love my life and I live in every moment. But sometimes when life is hard, you have to look to the future. You have to hope, dream and pray that the things you see in the future, you can eventually be blessed with.

I had the opportunity to go to the temple this morning with a dear friend. Yes, I woke up at 4:30 on a Monday and went to the temple. Can I just tell you, even though I was so tired I wanted to die. I am so grateful I had that chance. I love the temple more than anything. And in times like this. You just gotta go. Even if 4:30 is the only time you can squeeze it in. I promise it is worth it. It is more worth it than those couple extra hours of sleep.

I know that through The Lord and our Savior Jesus Christ I can find true happiness. I know that he is my constant companion and I can turn to him for anything. He will help me through everything. I know that the temple is a place where I can find peace and it can help me through the rough times. The power of prayer is more real in my life than it has ever been. I know that it can truly bless us and he can truly help us. All we have to do is let him. I love this gospel more and more everyday. I would be nowhere without it. It has literally carried me through, when I no longer thought I could go.
And with that I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ Amen.

Thank you so much for reading! I love you all and appreciate you more than you know! I hope everyone had a great Monday!! :)

 

<3// Nessa



Never Forget {9/11}

 

Twelve years ago today lives were changed. Hearts were broken. And America was attacked by terrorist. Peoples lives were forever changed. As the two tallest buildings in America. The World Trade Center in New York City were hit by two hijacked planes.

I remember this day rather well. I was seven years old. At the time we were staying at my Grandmothers house due to her knee surgery. I remember I was ready for school and waiting for my mom but she wouldn't come out of the living room, due to the fact that her eyes were glued to the television. I remember my grandma saying a plane hit a building in New York, and that it must have lost engine power. Little did we know that America, specifically New York was being targeted for a terrorist attack. Shortly after the first hit, then came the second plane into the other tower and then a third plane into the Pentagon. Only being seven years old and not realizing what was happening I went to school. Mrs. Larsens 2nd grade class. I remember all the teachers being a little up tight, and some of my classmates talking about what had happened. Getting home that day from school, and turning on the tv I knew something very bad had happened.

 

A lot of people lost their lives that day. A lot of people also sacrificed their lives to save others. Businessmen and women, Firefighters, moms, dads, grandmas and grandpas. My heart still aches at the thought of the innocent people who were taken advantage of and had to be a result to someone's unfair decision. It was not right. It is not right. What happened on this day 12 years ago will never be ok. But it will rest in our hearts forever.

 

So this post is for all those who lost a loved one, all those who fought and lost their lives, and those who are still fighting to keep this from not happening again. I could not be more proud to live in this country. Even when something bad happened we were able to build ourselves back up. I am so grateful to all our soldiers who risk their lives everyday, and leave their families for months at a time to protect our country. We make this country. No one will every forget September 11, it will forever have a place in our minds and hearts. I hope you have all been able to reflect back for a moment, reflect upon the good in the world and how far we have come from that tragic event 12 years ago. Never Forget. 9/11. Thanks so much for reading! I hope everyone is having a good week! Happy Hump Day!
                                                                                    <3// Nessa

Missing {YOU}

You've been on my mind a lot lately. I know you are ok. I know you are loving every moment you are spending serving the one we love the most. But. I miss you. Maybe it is just because it is late at night, maybe I have just spent too much time on Pinterest. But I miss you. I know it doesn't matter that we are 6,170.4 miles away because well

And it is true that absence makes the heart grow fonder. My heart gets fonder everyday. Everyday I realize how lucky am I to have you in my life. The example you are, not only just to me, to our friends, our families and now the people of your mission, the people you serve every day. But I miss you.

 

I miss the late night talks. I miss the trumoo runs. I miss sitting in the car for hours listening to music. I miss discussing the future. I miss the deep conversations about the church. I miss your rants about the most random of things. I miss your excitement to see me excited. I miss your supportiveness. I miss your hugs. I miss your smile that can light up a room. I miss the glisten in your eyes. I miss the walks in the rain. I miss swinging in the park. I miss cooking in my kitchen. I miss the confusion of statuses. I miss the angry sad late night tears. I miss the goodnight phone calls. I miss the good morning texts. I miss running into you when it wasn't planned. I miss the unexpected voicemails. I miss watching Disney movies. Well...

 

Even though I miss you. I wouldn't want you in any other place. I could not be more proud of how far we have come. Where we are now and how we have gotten there. It has not by any means been easy. However, it has been completely worth it. This time will pass not as fast as I would like, but I am happy you are where you are. You are more than an example, you are a foundation. You know without any doubt the truth. You preach the truth everyday. You change lives everyday. And because I know this is Christ's plan, I can get along with missing you. And well...

 

 

Thank you. For being you. For going on your mission. For always choosing the right. For honoring your priesthood. For always standing up for the truth. Even though at times it hurt. It was always right. This was always right. Thank you for helping me become who I am today. Two years is shorter than we think and you will be home before we know it. And well...

 

 

I couldn't have said it better.

 

<3// Nessa

 

 

 

 

Because of {it} I am who I am

Whenever I see this saying I can't help but feel; Proud. Blessed. Grateful. Loved. One of my cute relief society teachers made magnets to go along with her lesson on Sunday and I couldn't help but be more than excited for this cute little gift.

There are so many things in the world that can engulf our lives. Whether it be school, work, a friendship or even a relationship. It can turn our world upside down, take us for a ride and leave us wishing, hoping, and wondering. Or it can make our world everything we ever imagined. That is what The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints has done for me. I love this church with every cell in my body. I have always been a member, born into the church, blessed, baptized, primary, young womens, and now relief society. The whole bit. But not until more recently have I ever been more proud to be a member. Not until recently has my testimony been more strong than it has ever been in my entire life. I have never felt the love of Christ more prominent in my life than I do right now. My heart is so full. I am so blessed. The spirit is what carries me through my days and I have become very reliable on it.

There was a time in my life when I felt so alone I didn't know what way to turn. I was mad at the boy, I was mad at my Heavenly Father, I was just mad at everyone. I pushed everyone out, because one person had pushed me out. They didn't do it intentionally to hurt me, but boy did it hurt. More than anything that has ever happened to me in my life. I could not understand or grasp for the life of me why this was happening. I didn't know what to do, I was lost. Everything that I thought to be perfect had disappeared just like that. Because of this trial that I went through, I have gained more than I ever would have thought. Heavenly Father really does put us through trials to strengthen us. At that time in my life, I thought I was done for. I didn't know what I was going to do. And now I look back on it, I don't regret any of it at all. But without this gospel I wouldn't have made it through. Heavenly Father is always there, ALWAYS. He will listen to you, when no one else will. Believe me many angry, tearful, heartfelt prayers were said at this time and he listened. He will always listen. I know we are faced with trials to make us stronger. We will become stronger because of them. We will gain something out of them, even when we think otherwise. I learned more about myself as well as others during this trial of mine.

I know I am not perfect, but I know by living with Christ as my example I will be able to return to him with open arms. I am proud to say that I am grateful that, that trial was given to me. I am grateful to all those who helped me through it, especially my family and friends. Things will always work out in the end. I have changed my ways because of this trial, I know that whatever happens, happens for a reason. Time really does heal. I know that without this church I would be nothing. Without the infinite love of my Heavenly Father I would be no where. This church is perfect and I am grateful I get to live it everyday. Don't ever give up, just look up. Say a prayer in your heart. He loves you. I love you. Hard times will happen, it is apart of life. But with our Savior I know we can get through anything. I know it. I live it. I love it. Thanks for reading..I know it was kinda a lot..but I love you for it :)
                                                                                    <3// Nessa

I Go Back {Taco Tuesday}

Goodness gracious it has been awhile since I last posted! Well only a week, but in the blogging world that is like a year! Time has just gotten away from me and life has been crazy since school is fully back in swing! So first off I hope everyone had a lovely Labor Day weekend and enjoyed their day off! Lucky for me I got two days off because my professor cancelled todays class. Thanks professor, we all love you for that!

So what did I do with my extra day off! Of course I took my little sister and mom out to lunch because after all it is Taco Tuesday! (Last year I took my sister to taco Tuesday every week and we'd bring back tacos for my mom and her office, since she works at the high school.) So I guess you can say Taco Tuesday has become a tradition. Until I had to ruin it all and have class on Tuesdays during lunch. Except today I got to go back! Let me just tell you how much I love going back to my old stomping ground. Call me a super senior or whatever you want, but that place screams home to me. Not so much cause of the building or the memories, but because of the people! Every time I walk through those doors I see a familiar face. An old teacher, my sisters friends, my tracker family and they welcome me back with open arms. I have been made fun of countless times for being the super senior who will always go back, I embrace it because that place molded me into what I am becoming today. High School stinks while you are there but once you're out you realize it wasn't all that bad after all. However, I am starting to see more and more graduates come back to visit. So I am not the  only one! Even if I was though, it doesn't matter because I love it! Every minute of it! Whether I am listening to my mom give the students motivational talks or taking a ride on the golf cart and helping patrol the parking lots, it is always good to go back. Like they say, Once a Warrior, Always a Warrior.
                                                                                    <3// Nessa